Monday and Friday nights, I lace up the boots, step onto the pitch and it all begins.

The selection is random. The sides are drawn. And yet — almost every time, I feel it happen. I shift into something automatic, something ancient, something natural.

I become the conductor.

Not because I say so.

Because I am so.

⚡ It’s Not Just Football. It’s Frequency.

What might look like casual 5-a-side to an outsider is, for me, an energy ritual. Every shout, every run, every clap, every call for a shot — it’s transmission. I’m not trying to control the game. I’m not trying to be the best player on the field. I’m tuning the field. Lifting the tempo. Calibrating confidence.

I’m regulating the nervous system of the group.

Some call it “leadership.”
Others feel it as “presence.”
But to me, it’s something more primal:

I’m conducting energy.

👑 Leadership Without a Title

No one announces it. No one appoints it. But I can see it in their body language:

• They look to me when we’re under pressure.

• They rally when I do.

• They celebrate harder when I set the tone.

• They play freer when they feel seen.

It’s not about being the loudest voice.
It’s about being the clearest signal.

In that space, I’m not burdened by past mistakes. I’m not weighed down by labels or old stories. There’s no room for shame when you’re in flow. There’s no residue of the first life — only the rhythm of the second.

🕊️ Peace Powers My Performance

Here’s the thing: I’m no longer performing to prove.

In the past, I might’ve been overcompensating — showing up big to cover the cracks. Now, it’s different. The peace I carry isn’t passive. It’s potent.

I used to perform for peace. Now peace powers my performance.

That’s the shift.

When the inner noise fades, what’s left is pure signal.
And that signal spreads — to the lads, to the surroundings, to the moment itself.

⚔️ The Warrior Returns, But He’s Changed

There’s a fire in me, still. But it’s not reckless or reactive.
It’s focused.
Deliberate.
Clean.

That’s the gift of the second life:
You bring the full force of who you are —
but none of the chaos that used to leak with it.

You don’t just lead the game.
You elevate the room.

🧠 What This Means Off the Pitch

Whether it’s soccer, business, parenting, or creating — this energy is transferable. When you’re rooted in clarity, the world feels it. Your presence becomes a compass. People play better around you — not because you fixed them, but because you freed them.

Final Word

You might think you’re just showing up for a kickabout.

But when you’ve done the inner work…when you’ve crossed through shame, into sovereignty… you realise something profound:

You’re not just playing soccer.
You’re conducting energy.
And every game becomes a reflection of who you’ve become.